I’ve come to realise I’ve been blogging for over 10 years. That’s basically my life from when I was 18 to 28. Kinda crazy. Back then I had just started Uni, was single and naive and now I’m married and approaching my 30s AND OH SO WORLDLY (not)! ;D Random thoughts occasionally pop-up, like ‘If someone bothered to read through every single entry, they can seriously stalk the crap outta me, and it would be SO SCARY.’ But then again, it’s not like I’m famous. I’m just an ordinary person like every other person on the internet, so surely my life wouldn’t be that fascinating to anyone except to people I know (maybe).
I don’t even know who reads this blog.
Do you read my blog? 8D
At times, I would read through my old entries- just to see what I was up to, who I was hanging with and what I was thinking at the time. Sometimes the amount of detail I put into one entry bores even me to sleep. Oh Jen, did you really need to write down why someone didn’t show up to something? ;D It’s really not that important! But then again, maybe 20-year-old me wanted to write down everything, so memories are vividly ingrained for my future self. For that reason, I never go back and delete or edit the entries. Yes, I’ve written some embarrassing things, some things I completely disagree with now (because I’ve grown since then) but it’s all a learning process.
That’s kind of the purpose of a blog, no?
Well, here’s to another 10 years of ‘Dear Chibi’ :D! It’s been a fun ride :)
Two days ago, my dear friend Mal posted up an article to share her story, her experience and challenges in finding love. Please take a moment to read about it here. It makes me so sad to hear what she has been through, and I hope more people get to know her story. I’ve known her through most of my high school life, and she was my closest friend. A truly beautiful person who deserves all the happiness in the world. I love you Mal, please don’t ever give up on finding love.
I was browsing through my old draft posts I had written in the past but never got around to finishing or publishing them. One that caught my attention was one I had written over 2 years ago:
~ * ~ * ~ 30th January 2011
Today Kaz, Kat and I went to check out the Bridal Exhibition held at the Sydney Entertainment Center. The place was super packed with excited brides-to-be and seeing all the lovely things on display made us want to get married :3 Well.. that’s what we thought during the first 5 minutes upon entering the building. It was all nice and well, until we realised the exit was nowhere in sight and the overwhelming amount of booths and companies trying to grab you as their next customer became a little scary. Everyone wants that special perfect wedding, and with so many choices, planning for a wedding feels so stressful!
Finally when we reached the end, we sat down to watch the Bridal Fashion Parade :D Now THIS is what we were looking forward to *_*
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:) This entry made me smile. It somehow feels relevant because now I’m one of the excited brides-to-be. Since getting engaged 2 months ago, Jacky and I have already started planning for our big day, and so far the progress has been great! We’re really planning early and ahead so hopefully it will remain relatively stress-free for the rest of the journey. We’ve already locked in a date, and booked the ceremony and reception venue. heheee! Told you we’re organised :D The wedding is planned for November 2014, so there’s still a long way to go. It doesn’t stop me from daydreaming about it everyday though, hehehe :)
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Many years ago when I was still in High School, I met an online friend called Blox. Bloxy is a few years older than I, and he was into anime and art much like myself. We used to chat a ton on MSN and both frequent the same online forums. We met up on several occasions and although there were awkward moments at times, we generally had a good time.
The reality is, many people drift apart over time and the same thing happened to us. Slowly over the years we had less to talk about. However, every time we did chat, he would always ask me if I’m married yet, and I’d always ask him if he found a girlfriend. 2 years ago the conversation dropped completely and I had no idea what was going on in his life.
All of a sudden today, we get back in touch. And so, just like the old times I asked if he’s found a girlfriend yet. To my surprise, he tells me he’s now a married man~ wow! At that moment, I had this really warm and fuzzy feeling inside.. I am so so happy and excited for him. He used to worry he’ll never find someone and now he’s happily married. Ah, I love happy endings like this :)
It’s also moments like this that makes me think..wow, time sure flies. It’s been 9 years already huh?
A couple of days ago, Marcus wrote a series of blog entries on “Sailor Moon: Another Story” – a RPG that I’ve played and enjoyed as a kid. It turns out that it’s also one of his favourites :D In his words:
“I have a friend named Chibi who’s into Sailor Moon, and her birthday is coming up, so I figured I’ll finally write about this underrated game.”
When I read this, I was pretty excited! I expected one entry or two at the most, but boy was I wrong. He wrote.. wait, lemme go count.. 22 posts! They’re all so detailed with screenshots and everything. Wow, so nostalgic.
Thanks buddy, they were awesome to read :)Â Thank you so much.
You really need to get your stories published =D
By now I’m sure everyone has heard about the devastating earthquake and tsunami which hit Japan recently. It’s so sad something like this can happen to such a beautiful country. Every time I read about it in the news, my eyes start tearing up. Sometimes I want to turn a blind eye to the whole situation and wish it never happened. Ignorance is bliss, isn’t it? But this isn’t just a nightmare, it’s a reality.
Originally, Jacky and I had planned a 3 week trip to Japan next month. We were really looking forward to it, but it won’t be happening anymore. It’s disappointing, but we should feel lucky we aren’t over there right now… Many things happen that’s not within our control; no one wanted this to happen.
My heart goes out to everyone who has been affected by the disaster.Â I truly hope this will come to an end soon… no one deserves to go through this suffering.
Yesterday Jacky, Burpy, Somps and I went to see Christopher Nolan’sÂ ‘Inception’ at Burwood cinemas. With the movie being hyped so much, I wondered if it could really meet up to my expectations. Well, what can I say..? It was brilliant! Very clever and intriguing. It’s definitely one of the better movies I’ve seen a long time. If you haven’t seen it yet, chibi says GO SEE IT. NOW.
Or, you could be as hardcore as Burpy and watch it thrice ;) All in the name of the box office.
The idea of the movie is based on dreams within dreams, and since I’m quite a dreamer (I dream a lot) I could really relate to the ideas explored in the film. I have never experienced limbo (or is this ‘reality’ a limbo?), but I have experienced 2/3 level dreaming & sometimes lucid dreaming. It’s quite an interesting experience and I often wonder how it must feel for others to not dream at all.
I was so sure Inception was going to appear in my dream last night, as lately all my dreams relate directly to what I see/do during the day. The problem with this is- I don’t want to dream about it. Mal is too scary and haunting~ I want her to stay far far away from me as possible!! >_< (Not you Mal pal XD)
Since coming home last night, I kept forcing myself not to think about the film, and told myself continuously that it’s “not real”. It’s the only way I can make myself less scared about anything. So.. can you guess what happened in my dream last night..?
In my dream, I kept telling myself not to think about Inception and that it’s not real. LOL..
At least it kinda worked, since Mal never showed up…ahahahaa.
So here I am back in reality, though I spent all morning wondering if this really is the reality. ‘Are Mondays really this long and boring?’
I haven’t been very inspired lately. I hope it’s just one of the phases that’ll come and go but so far I don’t think I’m free from it yet. I’ve also been in a bit of a dilemma and trying to figure out what it is that I really want to do. I’m starting to realise something I’d hate to admit, but sometimes it’s just hard keeping it in.
I’ve been thinking about the future of MoonSticks, my weekly Sailor Moon comic strips. I don’t talk about it much on my blog, but I spend a lot of time and effort on the website and on every comic. I love to do it because it makes me happy and knowing others are enjoying them as much as I do gives me a lot of satisfaction.
Usually every few months or so I go on a little break from it to have a bit of a breather, but lately I’m just really tired. I don’t feel like making comics anymore. Am I being selfish? I feel horrible for thinking this because I knowÂ people enjoy them, who follow week after week anticipating for the next. Every comment and message left for me makes me feel all warm & fuzzy inside. I really do appreciate everything fans have given me, and this includes a sense of achievement and belonging. I’ve also met some really wonderful people who are always encouraging and supportive. If I suddenly stopped making comic strips, it would feel like I’ve betrayed them.
Today I dug up some old letters and cards from pen pals, old friends..even some from teachers. Looking back at these letters was quite nostalgic… I can’t imagine ever throwing them away. They’re so delicate, creative little things so carefully put together. The sad thing is, I have lost touch with most (if not all) of these people for many years now. But hey, they were still part of my life at one stage, and I will cherish that forever. Here are a few selected letters I thought I’d share:
Letters from Valery. We used to go to the same primary school at one stage, but since she was older she naturally moved onto High School while I stayed behind. She also moved suburbs and since then we’ve only seen each other once.
Dated 25th November 1996. In one of her letters, she put the date as “something th/something month/1999” lol. That’s really helpful.
From my best friend from primary school. Sadly, she’s no longer here.
Dated 8th January 1998